Before attending her first soccer practice, my daughter Laura, who
must have been six or seven at the time, climbed in the back of the van,
buckled up, and said, "I wonder what kind of trophy I'll get." Don't
blame Anne or me! We didn't teach her that. But that's what her friends and her
culture taught her to expect. Her teachers, too. What went wrong?
When I was growing up, I participated in organized sports because
I enjoyed the feeling of the summer sun on my back. I loved running across
grassy fields. As part of a team, I was given a task, and I wanted to handle
that task and succeed because it felt good inside to test my limits and see
what I was capable of. In some areas I was greatly successful: with Mr. Toler
on the mound during recess in fifth grade, I could smack a softball a mile.
With Bobby Joe Harris on the mound in Boys' Club baseball games, throwing a
curve ball at twelve years old, however, I struck out every time. In fact, in
the course of the season, I struck out 26 times in 30 at bats. There's
frustration, and then there's facing reality: this four-eyed phenom was not cut
out for baseball. Instead of asking them to pitch slower, I started playing
softball. In 1975, I played on a team that travelled to Florida to play in a
national tournament. We came in third. I got to play exactly one half of an
inning for the duration of the entire tournament in, where else?, right field.
No one hit the ball to me, thank God. I must have been an OK player, because I
did start some games at second base.
Yes, being successful does wonders for the way you feel about
yourself. If you don't have any under-pinnings of self-worth, failure can be
devastating. All you have then is your actions and other peoples' reactions.
You learn quickly to engage in only those things that carry no risk: of
failure, of embarrassment, of ridicule.
Baby Boomers are terrified of failure; so afraid that they created
a world for their childen in which failure is impossible. Failure, then,
becomes not a learning experience, but a disease to be avoided. If no one is a
failure, then everyone is a success, and the concept of success becomes
meaningless. Like a soccer trophy. When I was growing up, there were no
trophies except for first place, and really, who cared? Well, someone did care,
and that bothered the Baby Boomers. First place suggested a hiearchy, and
weren't we all about tearing down hierarchies? White over Black, Men over
Women? Rich over Poor? In removing the struggle to overcome injustices, we
black-balled the notion of struggle. No one should have to struggle. What?
My students today always ask me, "Is this for a grade?"
These are some of the saddest words I can think of, and I hear them every day.
After eighteen years of teaching at an alternative school, I finally entered the
world of the "real" classroom. I learned very quickly that if you
didn't put a grade on an assignment, a lot of kids wouldn't do it. These
students were unable to make the connection between an education and the rest
of their lives. School was an anomaly. The concept of becoming an adult is
meaningless. I never would have dreamed of asking my teacher the purpose of an
assignment. I assumed they cared about me and my education and were doing their
part to make me a better person. I trusted them. Naive? Perhaps.
So, how did we get here? I believe that Baby Boomers, in their
compassion for the underdog, the down-trodden, the abused have attempted to
create an ethos of benevolence: a feeling that everything will be OK if only we
avoid pain and suffering and failure. Everyone and everything is good, and we
must resist the urge to stress excellence because not everyone can achieve it.
Some people want to call this ethos " Big Government",
but it's much larger than that. And more ephemeral. This is what is so ironic
about the movement to eliminate suffering: it weakens us all.
I'm definitely not for a return to "traditional values",
an ultimately empty phrase. The Victorian Age has wreaked enough havoc as it
is. I'm no reactionary. But a return to, and an examination of
"Value" is desperately needed. Read "Zen and the Art of
Motorcycle Maintenance" if you want to explore this concept further. It
should be mandatory in high school. We, as a society, need to examine, debate,
refine, and express with utmost clarity what we value in this country. It
should start with an overt program-- in schools, on billboards, on stinky ol'
TV-- that we value children. Of course it starts in the home, but it does take
a village to raise a child.
Can we do this without mentioning God? I don't think so, but
that's what the public forum is for.
"Can We Be Good Without God?" was an article in The
Atlantic Monthly back in the '90s. It was written by Glenn Tinder, who is a
Christian, so obviously, his answer was "No." The magazine really got
slammed for publishing the article in the first place. The Church's contention
that it holds a higher moral ground is specious, at best. I'm tired of amoral
heathens thumping Bibles and wrapping themselves in the flag. They're doing
their part to destroy the shreds of decency and morality that still exist in
this nation. Which only leads to another problem: how do we re-establish
respect for authority? That's a topic for another day. I think I'm rambling
now. Perhaps your comments/reactions can lead me to a related topic. Let me
know what you think!